Never say you’ll be right back… I’ll see you in the kitchen with a knife.

“Now Sid, don’t you blame the movies! Movies don't create psychos, movies make psychos more creative”, scowls Billy Loomis (Skeet Ulrich) to Sidney Prescott (the GLORIOUS secondary scream queen, behind Jamie Lee Curtis, Neve Campbell) in the classic 1996 horror film, Scream. Now this has been a controversy for years; media, films, video games and more making people act out… and be a little, psycho. As I said in my previous blogs, that our life is our own movie, that we don’t have to dream about being in a cinematic adventure because we are already in one, our own directed film. These theorists are just saying that these “insane” creatures chose their genre to be horror. People break, like in Scream, Billy and Stew (spoil alert, sorry, you must watch it), they follow a motive, and with some peer pressure they just… snap. Freaky isn't it, that your boyfriend, your mother or your best friend could all of sudden, one day, just blow your head off. Happy Halloween. 

The boogey man may be shown as “real” through the 1978 horror flick, Halloween, but there is no lying saying that we all have our own boogey man in our life some where. Whether it is the creepy old man down the street that lives by him self and talks to no-one, your old high school math teacher, or an ex- boyfriend or girlfriend… someone that just freaks you out, scares you in a way, physically or mentally, where you lose thought of yourself and real life in a sense. Being scared changes the way you act and feel, that is why some people (average 68%) enjoy celebrating Halloween, to be frightened and feel like a different person. A person that is the scarer or the scared, feeling a sensation that we usually don't feel on a normal day to day basis. Honestly it is a thrill to me! One of my favourite “holidays”. 

The reality is; every person dressed up or even the boogey man himself is a real person underneath that hockey mask or a gruesome cut up face. All born, raised and living in this world, so the real controversy shouldn't be if movies make someone crazy, but if psychos are born psychos. Weird concept to think about, but as Billy says sometimes there is no motive… did anyone really figure out why Hannibal Lecter like to eat people? Don’t think so. Yes, a movie, maybe fiction, but we run into stories of killers all the time, all over the world. No matter how much I praise that this world is beautiful, there is always cracks of black somewhere to make us feel this world is shattered. It is up to you to concentrate and push the good in this world, to then help the “bad” people see the good lighting of life, and for them to change their ways... may not work but we have to try. 

A poor way to show that meaning, I know, but hey it's Halloween, I have to put a little weird into your head, get you kind of scared, let you feel the thrill. Enjoy your Halloween folks, scare, be scared and fear a little of this world while you enjoy it. 

Love;

Rachel 

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Want a spooky laugh? Watch this video of "the scary maze" reactions. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ajU-ZML51LI

How I feel about everyone... watch more movies :)

John Bender... The first HAWTY HAWT bad boy (insert heart eyes)!

“We're all pretty bizarre. Some of us are just better at hiding it, that's all.” says Andrew/Andy (Emilio Estevez, EMMIILLIIOO) in the forever, my all time favourite, and teenage classic movie, The Breakfast Club. The 80’s was a different (awesome) time from our present today, with teasing hair, whole cans of hairspray, Madonna, lots of colour and shoulder pads. BUT the two time periods have similar attributes, as movies show, we all live in the same way. In high school, in life in general, there will always be an athlete, a basket case, a princess, and a criminal… but we really are all just people who are bizarre and different. That my friends, is what makes life so interesting and awesome! You will never meet someone exactly like you, your “wierdness” is what separates you from the rest of the world. Don't hide it, embrace it!

I now love who I am, all the weird shit I am, the weird shit I do, and especially the weird shit I like. I always didn't though. Media doesn't always push being “different” as being “OK”.  Looking different, acting out of “norm” or speaking out of turn, a lot of it is just filled with “normal”, a normality the world has said was correct… but honey, there is no such thing as normal. This world is too beautiful to be worrying about what “normal” is.  Once you realize that, you can become your own person and LOVE that person, rather than criticizing your self and changing your bizarre personality to match the media’s view. 

I want to focus on The Breakfast Club for this point. Lets take Allison (the beautifully unique Ally Sheedy) for example, she declares herself as the “basketcase” in the film. A weird, neglected, outspoken and imaginative person who is an “outsider”. Andy, the jock, through out the film the viewers can tell he starts falling for this “out of the box” girl as they learn more a bout each other (likeness of their relationships with their own families). When Claire (80’s sunshine lady, Molly Ringwald) decides to dress Allison up at the end of the movie with “lady like” appropriate clothes and makeup (I personally loved the look but thats because of my style), Andy’s mouth dropped in AW! However, who she was didn't change, she rips off and steals a patch from his letterman jacket after a steamy kiss, which Andy still adored. Same occurrence happens when Claire crushes on, my future 2nd husband, John (Judd Nelson). At the end of the movie they get together and she takes off her diamond earrings her precious rich daddy bought her (her actual father not another guy) and then gave one to bad boy Johnny. The earring symbolized that high expense items, parties and such disguised who she really was, who was not a rich popular bitch, but someone with feelings and more insecure then she prevails. My point is… no matter what society tries to tell you, you are always better when you are your true, bizarre self, a lot more people like a REAL person. 

From a personal perspective, I was always labeled growing up as a “goody-two-shoes”, a rule follower, liked everyone and kind to everyone. Not a bad label I know but LORDY did it irritate me! I always thought, no I'm a rule breaker… just watch. I then may have acted out… a bit. I started going on a lot of dates, and kissing a lot of guys (in grade 8 and 9 that was a big deal okay). I was also lying to my parents about where I was and blah blah blah. I lost a lot of friends during this time, and created a space between me and my parents. They all knew that what I was doing wasn't me, and did (what I completely understand why they did it) was to back away from me. I am a goody-good person, like what is wrong with that. I always did my homework, I wanted to tell my parents the truth and what was going on in my life, I wanted to “hold out” for a guy who appreciates me, I want to be real. People may call me a “bitch” or a “pussy” (derogative terms is coming in later blogs, TRUST ME) but guess who doesn't care what you people say, (middle finger emoji). People who like the real me are people that deserve my attention and care. I may be weird, and like staying in some Friday nights to eat shitty food and watch old school movies, or still geek out when my boyfriend puts his arm around me or hold my hand, and sometimes will wait until the last minute to finish a project like a “rule breaker” (and like I am doing with this blog right now). Who I am is me, nothing like media’s “norm”, nothing “normal” at all actually, if that did exist, and especially; I am like no-one else. That is what makes meeting new people amazing, connecting with different people broadens this world and shows the true beauty of humanity. 

As cliche as I can say it… be yourself, not what others say to be. It'll literally open a whole new world for you (Aladdin couldn't of said it any better). 

Love;

Rachel

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This is me... everyday

Started from the bottom, now we’re here… reason why Drake is a smart man.

“Don’t let anyone ever make you feel like you don’t deserve what you want.” a young Patrick (Heath Ledger, RIP you talented man) says to Cam (Joseph Gordon-Levitt) in 10 Things I Hate About You. Not only was this movie a classic, one for the books with it’s witty cast, truth about relationships in high school, and an emotional tear jerker ending with the famous poem; it also holds a powerful meaning. No matter the elements against you, no matter what people say, no matter the differences (sometimes he is going to be a ‘bad boy’ and you are the possible ‘goody-good girl’), you always fight for what or who you want.

This is going to be a more of a serious lesson or discussion you could say… so sorry about the real life smack in this face talk but we are going to get personal. I think every person in their life will run into a moment where you think someone in this world is controlling your life and for some reason doesn't want you to be happy. Where everything you want doesn't work out, or a literal storm comes and anything that could go wrong, does. It happens, and honestly its okay to feel like this. No one is perfect, no ones life is perfect all day everyday. As beautiful as this world can be, and ill say that every post, shit does happen. We drop our phones in this toilet, we don't get that promotion you've been killing yourself for, we have to let go of loved ones, we have broken hearts… but we are then defined on how we overcome these shit obstacles and move on to better ourselves. We are not made of glass, we don't break after an accident, we may rip and bruise, but we heal and we overcome to eventually be happy. We are always given the opportunity to make our lives better for what we deserve. 

Now for the personal… in my high school years I dated a boy for most of my 4 years. The guy everyone loved; athletic (hockey boy), smart, good-looking, yet quiet and mysterious. I was infatuated with the thought of dating this guy. Like every tween/teenage relationship it always starts off cute. Everything is new and fun, seems so real  and I too am at fault for falling for the puppy dog love. I didn't understand what love was (who does at that age), but I felt good saying I had a boyfriend and I was in “LOVE” and we were going to get married and… I would never be truly happy. I lost my virginity to him, and after that we could not go a day of seeing each other without him wanting it. Even when I didn’t. He made me feel like if I did not please him, I wasn't doing my ‘duty’ as a girlfriend or that I didn't love him. He also kept me on a short leash. I wasn't allowed to talk to other guys, (I had many guy friends, before this happened at least) I wasn't allowed to like guys pictures on social media without being questioned, he didn't even want me to post selfies because “who else was I posting them for” (for my GOD DAM self because I felt f***ing beautiful that day and I wanted to bless my friends timelines!). Now don't get me wrong, (because I hate bashing EX’s) he was not a bad guy, he did take me out on dates, he did text me “good morning” and “good night”, he did listen and give advice…but sometimes it wasn't enough. Before prom, I broke up with him, thinking it was a good idea at the time. 

A year after that, I felt lonely and began dating but found nothing more. I literally felt like Bianca Piper (the wild Mae Whitman) in the movie DUFF, where she spends all weekend in her room alone, eating pizza and watching movies after her heart was crushed by Wesley (Robbie Amell though… Google Image him, you wont be disappointed). My EX then came out of nowhere and messaged me. I fell right back in for another year. He was better however, a year away at university did him better, learned more about talking to me and appreciating me, but still… I felt like I was forcing myself to be with him so I wasn't “alone”. This may all seem easy for me to type but in reality, I was a self conscious wreck at the time and was in a sad cycle. Thinking the only men that wanted me, were ones that only wanted my body (this is also not a sexist remark as I very much believe gender roles could be reversed in a situation like this too). If these feelings were my EX’s fault, may be, but none the less it was a hard time. After officially breaking up (for good), he told me I couldn't find anyone better and that I deserve ONLY him. At the time, I truly felt that way. It wasn't until I went away on a trip with my family I realized… F*** this! Why am I feeling sorry for myself, I am better than this, look at this beautiful freaking beach and sunset, look at all the delicious free Piña colada. Life is too good to be feeling sad. I conquered losing friends and family, my parents getting a divorce, being peer pressured, being put down, losing dance competitions, and high school in general. I am able to conquer love because of its beauty that I want. I DESERVE good love, because I love who I am. 

Then sure enough, with my new confidence, and my deep appreciation for social media; while I wasn't even looking for it cupid bit me in the ass and I met the LOVE of my life! Austin is the love I deserve; true, kind, equal and fun. 

I don't mean to only give the example of relationships as something as you all deserve. You also fight for that career or job you want, you deserve that house you've been saving for and eating ramen noodles for what feels like forever for it. You deserve what you want along as you drive for it and don't let people get in your way. No one can tell you what you deserve or that you’ll fail. You fight for what you want and if it is meant to be, it'll come! 

As Johnny Castle (Patrick Swayze, my imaginary husband) says in the classic Dirty Dancing, “No body puts Baby in the corner”. Baby Houseman wanted to dance (and be) with the ‘lower class’ and not ‘daddy approved’ Johnny. No one put her in a corner though. She danced one of the most iconic dances in cinematic history, and she got to be with her love! She fought, she got pushed down, but then she conquered. If Baby can do it, you can too.

Love;

Rachel

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OH MOMMA take me back in time!

Fairytales can come true…BRB my Pumpkin chariot and horses are waiting

“The book was written by a bunch of stupid girls who make up rumours because they’re bored with their own lame lives.” Aaron Samuels says in Mean Girls, referring to the “Burn Book”. This line in the film truly hit Cady (a not so crazy Lindsay Lohan at the time) right in the heart. People do make up shit because they are bored, but is there a reason to be bored with your own life? Lie to make your life seem more “interesting” like a 1 million dollar cinematic adventure? Honey, your life is a movie.

You know when you wake up in the morning, roll over, check your phone, see the time, and then try to plan your day if you'd slept an extra hour or even 10 minutes? If you would have enough time to do everything you need to do, or would have to take some tasks out? Not because you have “nothing to wake up for”, like some people react when you say you don't want to wake up, but for the sole reason you are just tired. I live a healthy life style, I work out, get my 8 hours of sleep, eat well… most of the time, but still I'm tired. My mind exhausts me, no lie, my mind runs 24/7 with nonsense. 

Over reacting to situations, imagining some future plans, thinking if my life was a movie, right now I would be riding in that red Porsche with Jake from Sixteen Candles (he’s not my type but LORDY you got to love that movie). Then my mind is jumping back to reality every 5 seconds. It is mentally exhausting. I know you all feel the same, your mind is in a constant loop of fantasies and crazy ideas of your life… but really your actual reality isn't that bad. We wish our lives were like cinema, like who doesn't wish they could be in a musical with John Travolta singing about a “sooped” up car. The thing is though, we CAN live their lives. We live in the same world as most movies and TV shows portray their actors to live in, a beautiful world called Earth, living this gracious thing called life. Some things they do are far fetched, but they mimic natural life that we all live, just with some crazy turns. I realized this when my boyfriend told me he loved me (get ready for the sappy shit). Was our 3 month anniversary, this boy, we will call him Austin (he loves that name… wierdo), had bought me flowers after telling me he has never bought a girl flowers before, other than his mom (super sweet mommas boy). He lays me down in his bed, kisses my forehead, with teary yet joyful eyes, brings up our relationship and our feelings for each other, he was scared of my reaction, but it truly was a “made for movie” moment. It wasn't a movie though… it was my life.  

What I am trying to say to you readers is that life is beautiful, tragic, magical, and inspiring like a cinematic adventure. You are the main actor. The comedic relief may be you tripping up the stairs with burning hot coffee in you hands, or as harsh as you farting because you are laughing too hard… in public. The climax may be as simple as midnight before a big assignment is due, or as grand as your “prince charming” making you his only. The tragedy could be as little as pulling your groin muscle and missing a dance competition, or as rough as watching your best friend (at the time) stab you in the back but right in front of your face. No matter how little an incident can be, it is in your movie, you just got to create the outcome, the resolution and the conclusion the way you think is suited best.

 So… stop thinking your life can’t be like the movies you watch, it can be, but with your own personal twist, your own setting, your own supporting actors, your own moral of the story. Movies are here to inspire us, teach us, to make us dream and believe we can be those we admire in these films, or follows their actions (hopefully constructive and kind actions). But make sure you leave in those beautiful landscape scenes in your show, like they do in every movie to show the setting. Such as looking over a grand cliff while sitting on a car with your high school sweetheart like Sam (the GORGEOUS Hilary Duff) from A Cinderella Story. Those are one of a kind scenes (also take many pictures of it). Your life, therefore, your own director. 

Love;

Rachel 

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It was her reality doe...

The Start of Something New... with no Troy Bolton

“Life moves pretty fast if you don't stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it…”, the most cliche and known teenage saying around, from the classic 1986 John Hughes film, Ferris Bueller’s Day Off. Is it true? Sure, but until you realize that life is beautiful to “stop and look around”, your life won't change.

I am a true 20 something girl that has lived through the bull crap of the teen years, and now scared shitless for adulthood. I am not depressed or have any mental issues (obviously that I know of), just a woman wanting to rant about her life and some issues we all deal with in one way or another. Maybe it can help you readers see everyone goes through similar stuff and we all cope in different ways. Just maybe it will help you feel like you are not alone with what you've been through, and then realize all the great stuff we have to help us in this crazy world. Then MAYBE I can make it interesting and enjoyable with some embarrassing stories and geek out with a few classic movie quotes and GIF’s. 

The truth is, my life isn't as interesting as pretending to “whore out” in high school like Olive Penderghast (Emma Stone from Easy A, LOVE that movie and its points on society… but get to that in later blogs). Or as cool as getting to make out with the sexy Channing Tatum while pretending to be my brother just to play soccer (we all wonder what being a guy would be like… walking around… things dangling) like Miss Viola (Amanda Bynes in She's the Man). In reality, I am like all of you reading this… average, but what I want to get across is we may have all had an “average” life with ups and downs, but in no way are we all the same. I am different from the next girl who also thought pool sex was a good idea (the thought of bacteria though…), or the other girl who also tried a no name self tanner (I became a different race… an Oompa Loompa). We may have all gone through similar experiences, but we are all unique and beautiful in our own ways.

What I'm trying to say is that; my life may be average but this is no average blog… I wan’t to be friends with all of you and show that being 20 Something, or a teenager or even 40 Something, it is a time you should enjoy, as hard as it may be. That we all go through some tough and weird shit through our lives but it is all beautiful in one way or another. Learning this made me truly enjoy and love life. I want to share it with you, wether you want to listen or not to be honest. So… every Wednesday you can listen to my shit, send me your shit, and we can talk shit together!  

Love;

Rachel 

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